Big Fat Queer

April 29, 2010


I had a day off. I had a lazy morning, with a boiled egg and some peanut butter on Finn Crisps.

I went to the Museum of Modern Art this afternoon. I took a bus part of the way and got off about a mile away and walked through Central Park. Along the way I had an apple and a few almonds.

Behind the Gare St. Lazare, Paris

At the museum I saw about 300 photographs by Henri Cartier-Bresson, considered the father of photojournalism. He was among the first professional photographers to use 35mm and hand held cameras, thus freeing him to go into the streets of the world and record what life was about. He recorded Ghandi’s funeral and the last stage of the Chinese Revolution in 1949, and photographed some of the most influential people from the thirties to the sixties. The title of his book “The Decicive Moment” describes what his photography is all about. It is about capturing at just the right time, place, lighting, context, composition a moment that catches paft of life in an iconic way.

“There is a creative fraction of a second when you are taking a picture. Your eye must see a composition or an expression that life itself offers you, and you must know with intuition when to click the camera. That is the moment the photographer is creative,” he said. “Oop! The Moment! Once you miss it, it is gone forever.”

It was a wonderful exhibit. I identify with his aesthetic so much, but he was so, so good that I would like to learn from his work.

Anyway, for dinner I ordered from an Indian restaurant Lasooni Ghobi, cauliflower in a rich, earthy tomato sauce, and Vegetable Korma, mixed vegetables with an almond cashew gravy. I didn’t eat the rice, but I made some Quinoa instead. Joe had recommended it, and I’ve heard of it for years, but never had it. It is a grain-like product made of seeds. When you prepare it, it’s a little like couscous. It was very good with the Indian food.

I will have a smoothie of Greek yogurt and Pineapple in a bit.

Tomorrow off to Montauk.

April 28, 2010

Warning: I May Stray

This is a picture I took over 25 years ago at Montauk. I love the visual tricks the shadows play. I will be there this weekend for a couple of days; the weather promises to be beautiful and warm. I may not be so disciplined while I am there. I will still keep refined carbs to a minimum, but I know I will have some fried oysters, one of my favorite guilty pleasures. But I also hope to have some healthy fresh (very fresh off the boat) fish. I don’t know if I will blog daily. I may just report when I get back.

Today I have had four feedings so far. Maybe I should call them eatings, since I do feed myself 🙂

In the morning I had prepared something with more protein, but I left it at home. When I got to work I bought a Cascadia Farm organic granola bar at the news stand downstairs. It was good and the nutrition info was pretty good until I got to the 30 grams of carbs. What was even more shocking was that it said this was 10% of the recommended daily amount. 300 grams of carbs a day! WTF? I also had ten almonds (plus or minus a nut).

Lunch was roast turkey breast (the food trough aka salad bar near the office roasts a whole turkey fresh every day and it is pretty good) and some baby spinach.

Later in the afternoon I had a cup of Fage 2% Greek yogurt and a small apple, with about a tablespoon of peanuts.

Dinner was steamed vegetables, 4 shrimp, 3 ounces of chicken breast, all tossed in some melted coconut oil.

Later I will have a small smoothie of coconut milk and mixed berries.

Again, without counting calories during the day, when I entered everything into the log it came out to 1526 calories. Interesting how that works out.

I walked a mile and three quarters today.

April 27, 2010

International Cuisine

For my fourth feeding of the day I had turkey and Brussels sprouts, one shares a name with a country and one with a city. Haute cuisine, to be sure. In a few moments I will have my fifth and final feeding, a smoothie of coconut milk thinned with coconut water and pineapple and mixed berries.

I didn’t count calories today as I planned my feedings, but at the end of the day I entered everything in the food log and voila, it added up to 1500 calories. I keep coming back to that number. Today I just spread it out. For now, that seems to be what my body needs not to feel hungry.

I walked another half mile on the way home for a total of 1.5 miles today. It was very windy and a bit cold coming home. It was cold enough tonight for the heat to come on. Saturday it is supposed to be over 80 degrees. Quite a range.

I made a vlog this evening about ethics and genetic research. It should be up on YouTube sometime tomorrow.

Mini-Meals for Mini-Me

Per Joe Riggs’ advice I am trying to eat more frequently, but smaller meals. This is supposed to increase my metabolism, reduce insulin secretion and improve my insulin sensitivity. One thing I do notice is that I don’t feel stuffed and therefore not logey. I feel a little hungry, but not overly so. It takes some adjustment.

Today I have eaten three times so far.

For breakfast I had a boiled egg, a banana and a few almonds.

For lunch I had a salad of mixed greens, chick peas, shredded cabbage and a wedge (about 1/4) of avocado.

This afternoon I had about two ounces of peanuts and an apple (a fresh organic Winesap from the Greenmarket)

Looking at this I see a side benefit – a great deal of variety in what I am eating.

I walked a mile so far today. The weather is getting quite sunny and it should be a beautiful weekend, which is great as I am going to spend the weekend in beautiful Montauk, one of my favorite places on earth. Here is a picture of the Montauk Lighthouse I took on a visit there last September. If you click on the pic you can see a larger view.

April 26, 2010

Grouper is Good; Mondays Suck

I had two fillets of grouper this evening, sauteed in a little butter, lemon juice and garlic. It was very fresh and not fishy at all. On the side: broccoli rabe and parsnip/squash puree.

I had breakfast today: a boiled egg and some almonds. Lunch was about six ounces of turkey and a salad.

I will have a smoothie of organic milk and strawberries. I have walked a mile today in nasty cold rain.

Mondays beat the shit out of me. I never get enough sleep. Left to it’s own devices, my body likes to go to bed at 2 or 3 am. In my reckless youth it was 4 or 5. My body likes to get up at 10 am. So on the weekends I move toward my natural cycle, but Monday I have to get up earlier (7 o’clock this morning). After going to bed at 2, 7 seems awfully early. Then the readjustment to work, coming home to sort laundry. What joy. Sorry for complaining. Life is good; Mondays are not.

But – the bright side: I am only working three days this week. I am taking Thursday and Friday off. I am going to Montauk for a couple of days this weekend to take pictures, maybe make a video, stare out at the ocean and drive around the East End of Long Island. I will give you a full report.

April 25, 2010

Lazy Sunday (5 pound loss this week).

I woke up to a cold wet day. I did some housework for about 45 minutes. I didn’t get any walking in. In fact, I never left the apartment today, just too nasty. I also didn’t count calories today, but I’ve done ok.

I made an omelet this morning with the fresh organic eggs I bought at the greenmarket yesterday, with about three ounces of smoked salmon and onions. I had two pieces of pumpernickel bread with about a teaspoon of peanut butter on each.

For dinner I had four fried dumplings and eight large shrimp with sesame sauce. Not much in the way of vegetables today, but I will make up for it tomorrow. I was very busy with little puttering about the house chores all day.

I did weigh in this morning – 373 – a five pound loss from last week.

Though I didn’t count my calories throughout the day, I did enter them in my food log and they add up to 1300 calories. It seems that if I eat the right foods and enough to sate my hunger, I arrive at about the same place every day. Which is amazing when you consider two months ago I was eating 4,000 calories a day and always hungry.

April 24, 2010

An Afternoon in Union Square

I spent the afternoon in Union Square, mostly taking pictures. What else would I be doing? I also bought a few things at the Greenmarket, which is, to quote Joe Biden, a Big Fucking Deal in New York. It’s like a farmer’s market where farmers from New York and surrounding states come and sell organic fruits, vegetables, milk, cheese, flowers, meat, chicken, bread and other baked goods, preserves, pickles, etc. I was hoping to get some fresh tomatoes, but it is still a little early. I bought a couple of beautiful organic apples, one Winesap and one Macoun. Fresh tree-ripened New York State apples are delicious. I also bought a dozen jumbo organic eggs for seven dollars !!! – but they were gathered this morning in upstate NY. I bought some fresh Colby cheese made with goat’s milk from a farm in Pennsylvania. And I bought a bunch of ramps, which are in season locally now. Ramps are sometimes called wild leeks. They have a scallion-like bulb and broad leaves, and they have a garlicky flavor. I sautéed the greens and chopped the bulbs for pasta sauce.

Ah, the pasta. I had my weekly Dreamfields pasta (low carb) fix, angel hair, with a sauce of ramp bulbs, garlic, olive oil, red pepper and split grape tomatoes sautéed and mashed. Ramp greens and Colby cheese on the side.

I have not counted calories today. I will have a little peanut butter and maybe one of the fresh apples a bit later.

I am very pleased with some of the pictures I took today. I shot nearly 300 shots, so it will take a while to sort through and select and edit. But here is a teaser.

How ’bout Them Apples?

Occasionally when fruit gets past the point where I would eat it raw, I find ways to salvage it by cooking. For example, blueberries that have sat around too long can be simmered down to a compote to spread on bread or just to eat with a spoon. I had a large Golden Delicious apple that by this morning was a little mushy and I didn’t want to just eat it raw. So I sliced it and sauteed the slices in a teaspoon of peanut oil and browned the outside. The looked a bit like french fries. When they were brown enough I sprinkled a pinch of kosher salt on them and they were delicious. The sweetness of the cooked apple, with the char of carmelization and the savoriness of the salt were a great combination. You could add cinnamon or lemon juice or other things to tweak the flavors.

I also had half a pumpernickel bagel with a schmear of cream cheese, smoked salmon, slices of tomato and onion.

I will not count calories today, but I will probably total them up at the end of the day. This way I am not controlling my eating based on calories, but I still have some idea when all is said and done. I’m a numbers guy, an evidence guy, a data guy… I like to know.

Also Joe wants me to eat more frequently. I know he’s right about that, but I’ll have to work on it.


April 23, 2010

Peanut Butter & Banana Sammich!

This picture was featured today on the Gothamist, a hugely popular blog about New York City. If you click the picture, you can see the article that included my pic. This is the fourth photograph of mine they have published in about six months.

I worked late, but I walked about three-quarters of a mile on the commute home. That’s a total of a mile and a half today. I had a peanut butter and banana sammich when I got home. It is a staple in the south and I love it. I also had a cup of vegetable soup and some raw veggies. All told, about 650 Calories.

I will have either an apple or a pear later.

This was a good end to the week. I had the picture published, which is always flattering, and I had an installation at work at the end of the day we anticipated might be problematic, but all went smoothly. Oh, and I found out from my friend Teri’s facebook page that a short film she wrote that I acted in has been selected for the Manhattan Film Festival in July. It has already been shown at the Big Apple Film Festival earlier this year. It is very short and part of a group of films called New York Minutes. Here is link to the trailer from IMDB. You can see my legs attempting to run on the Brooklyn Bridge.

Izzy Gave Me a Snickers Bar

There is this guy in one of the offices I work in who keeps candy on his desk, and every time I am in that office he gives me a piece of candy. Today it was a Snickers bar, one of the little ones. I ate it. It was small.

For lunch I had about 6 ounces of turkey and a salad. I had a snack later of 15 almonds and a banana. I am at about 800 calories today. Joe wants me to stop counting calories, but I can’t help myself.

I have walked three quarters of a mile today. I will be working late doing an update, so I don’t know if I’ll walk a whole lot more today, but I will try to get in at least a quarter mile more for an even mile.

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