Big Fat Queer

July 31, 2010

Saturdays Are Too Short

I didn’t really sleep too late this morning. I was up at 9. But this day has flown by. I spent most of it working on the edited version of my “Life in a Day” video. It’s taking a while because I am also composing a score. I think I have used up most of Kevin MacLeod’s music and a lot of Audionautix (very generous musicians who allow their music to be used royalty free). I can’t use copyrighted music because I am a YouTube partner and they won’t approve it if I don’t have permission or own the copyright. It takes me a while to compose and perform since I am not really a musician.

I took a haircut this afternoon. All of my life before I moved to New York I would “get” a haircut. In New York, especially among older New Yorkers, you “take” a haircut. I used to be a giver; now I am a taker.

I had some Kashi GoLean Crunchy granola for breakfast with skim milk and a banana. I didn’t eat again until about 9 pm this evening. I was so busy I didn’t notice the day had flown by. I ordered two fish tacos and a small order of Mexican rice from a really good (though a bit overpriced, even for NY) neighborhood restaurant called MXco. And I had the salad pictured above, which was the best part of the meal. It was romaine lettuce (regular supermarket stuff), but all the rest of the ingredients were from the Green Market. Red globe tomatoes, yellow plum tomatoes, mangoes and red cherries. The picture was snapped before I dressed it with a little lemon juice, balsamic vinegar and just a drizzle of olive oil.

July 30, 2010

I Miss That Lovely Boy With The Golden Beets

I know a few of you looked at the “dailies” that I have submitted to “Life in a Day”. In one clip at the Union Square Green Market I approach a table of root vegetables and narrated what I saw, fresh onions with the tops still attached, carrots, leeks, celery… and then I didn’t recognize what I saw next. It looked like beets. It was right next to the beets, but it was sort of orange.

I heard a voice from across the table telling me it was “golden beets”. I had never heard of golden beets before. I was fascinated; moreso when I looked up from the camera to see the body from which emanated the voice. He was a very nice looking boy, well, young man – maybe 18 or 19, but boy-ish, at least to me. We spoke a little. I asked him if he worked on the farm. He said sometimes, but he preferred working at the market. He was very appealing. Cute, yes, but had a farmboy way about him. (I swear I’m not trying to write soft core gay porn here. I’m just trying to describe what was just a nice situation. I’m not even thinking about that… consciously.) He seemed guileless and sweet, but not a cliche. Definitely not a hipster city boy. I doubt that he clubs in Williamsburg. He was far more interesting than that. Does the gentleman project too much? I asked to put him on camera. He declined, but he thanked me for asking in a way that implied that people do photograph him or film him without asking.

I didn’t buy any beets that day. But I have been thinking about them for a couple of days. Is it the beets or is it the boy? Does it matter? I wanted to roast them and make golden borscht with them. (This is starting to sound more like soft core porn).

Anyway, the boy and his little agricultural coterie were not at the market today. On Fridays only about half the vendors show up. I haven’t decided if I will go back tomorrow. Probably not. But if I do I may just find golden beets at another table. Just to prove it isn’t about the boy. But then again… if I am already there, it would be rude not to say hello 🙂

I bought more non-gmo corn on the cob. The thing about corn whose genes are unmolested and that hasn’t been drenched in pesticides is that the ear is gap-toothed (mix any metaphors lately Mr. Holyfield?). It’s kind of nubby and ugly, but it’s delicious (No Porno!)

I also got some tomatoes (both red and heirloom) and yellow and green squash. I grilled the squash with some onions and boiled some corn and grilled a hamburger patty. Very tasty.

Lunch was chicken and salad. For Breakfast I had a “Full Bar”, which is supposed to make you feel full. I don’t know if it did, but I wasn’t crazy about it. Spongy, no crunch.

I walked two miles.

I will eat a peach later. I am having one cocktail for the evening. Vodka on the rocks with a twist of lemon.

Anyone else with book suggestions, keep them coming. I haven’t decided yet, but here are some of the suggestions:

“The Omnivore’s Dilemma” by Michael Pollan
“Eating for Life” by Bill Phillips
“The End of Overeating: Taking Control of the Insatiable North American Appetite” by David Kessler

July 29, 2010

Less Than a Year to Go. Why Bother?

End of the World, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

Since the world is ending May 21, 2011 should I even bother to get healthy? I think I can eat chicken McNuggets for a year and maybe survive until the apocalypse.

But anyhoo… Tonight I had a very nice meal. I stir-fried an assortment of vegetables (onions, tomatoes, yellow and green squash, peppers, corn, lima beans, carrots) in a mixture of olive oil and coconut oil and pureed them with some coconut milk and sriracha and made a lovely creamy soup. Then I sauteed some finely minced onions, threw in eight ounces of shrimp and at the end tossed in some rosemary and lemon zest. It was all very tasty.

Lunch was nothing unusual, about four ounces of chicken and a salad.

For breakfast I had some granola with skim milk and a banana. No snacks during the day today. Tonight I have some fresh cherries.

I walked a mile and a half today.

I am searching for something to read relating to food. Has anyone read “The Omnivore’s Dilemma” by Michael Pollan? I am considering reading it and I just wondered if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions.

July 27, 2010

Life in a Day Takes Longer Than a Day

Filed under: Eat Less; Move More — bigfatqueer @ 10:30 pm

I shot two hours of footage on Saturday for the Life in a Day project (referred to in an earlier post) I have been selecting the shots that seem worth submitting and compiling them to post. It takes a lot of work. I guess it would be called post production here in my little production company of one. As I mentioned a couple of days ago my theme is healthy food.

I ended the video with a meal I prepared from food I acquired during my day’s travels. The protein was salmon steak I bought in Chinatown, which has amazing fish markets. I had some left over and made a salmon salad sandwich on pumpernickel last night with a mango and fresh lychee salad. I had some roast chicken and a salad for lunch. For breakfast I had cold cereal, skim milk and banana. Yes, I ate breakfast. I’m giving it another go. I walked a mile and a half. It has been warm, but quite dry and pleasant. I can walk without getting soaked.

I had cereal (granola) again this morning, with a banana. Lunch was broiled fish with a salad. For dinner I had sesame chicken and broccoli with very little rice. I have some fresh lychee from Saturday, so I will snack on those. I walked two miles today.

I work in Long Island tomorrow and it is supposed to be quite muggy. I don’t know how much walking I’ll get in and the day will be long as it is a two hour commute each way.

I am rendering the footage to submit for the project. After I get the submission done (it has to be in by this coming Saturday), I will edit my own version and post it on YouTube and embed it here.

July 25, 2010

A Meal in a Day

I haven’t blogged for a few. For the weekend I was busy, very busy, preparing for, shooting and selecting footage to submit to Life in a Day, which is a YouTube project to produce a crowd-sourced documentary about what people were doing on Saturday, July 24, 2010. My footage included a ride on the Staten Island Ferry, Chinatown, Union Square Green Market and my kitchen. The theme was a meal in a day – what it takes to create a healthy, fresh meal from good ingredients. Mostly it was about the journey to acquire the ingredients. I happened to have some great scenery for it, although it was very, very hot. I walked about two and a half miles, climbed a lot of stairs, waited in a lot of hot subway stations. At the end of the day of shooting I was depleted. But I made it. Today I looked through footage and I am still selecting what I will send. The feature length documentary is being executive produced by Ridley Scott and directed by Kevin MacDonald, an Acadamy Award winning documentarian. It’s a long shot that anything of mine will be included since so many people are contributing, but I will compile my edited take on the footage sometime this week – I hope.

Yesterday I had cold cereal for the first time in a long time. It was Newman’s Own and a little oversweetened, but tasty. I had strawberries cut up in the cereal. For dinner… well you can see the film when I post it 🙂

Today I had a ground beef patty on pumpernickel with slices of very fresh tomato, which I bought at the Green Market yesterday – along with a bunch of other stuff.

For dinner I had a stuffed orange bell pepper with stuffing of reconstituted dried mushrooms, onions, pepper, garlic, parsley and some ground chicken. I had a fresh mango/lychee salad. I have some strawberries for later. I walked about a mile today.

July 22, 2010

I Ate My Emergency Snickers

I walked a lot today, about two miles. It was hot, but not so humid. I had a low blood sugar moment while I was making a video after work. I went downtown to do an on-site vlog about the Mosque controversy near Ground Zero and walked a lot there. I had to eat my emergency Snickers. But otherwise it was a good day.

I had a granola bar for breakfast. For lunch I had some roast chicken, about six ounces, and a salad. When I got home from shooting the vid I had a pumpernickel bagel with cream cheese and smoked salmon. After I post this I will once again dare to eat a peach.

My video is rendering. I will post it and it should be live by tomorrow morning.

Good night all.

July 19, 2010

Lots of Colorful Veggies

The picture above is lunch today. I had about six ounces of steamed shrimp with an assortment of vegetables. For breakfast I had a Kashi granola bar. Dinner was some Finn Crisps with peanut butter and sliced banana with more of the vegetable soup I made yesterday. I have some fresh strawberries I will eat right after I post this.

I walked a mile today. Heavy showers during this morning’s commute precluded much walking.

Not much else to say. It has been a busy Monday and I am pooped. Catch you later.

July 18, 2010

Sometimes Calories Count

As anyone who follows this blog can attest, most days my food intake consists of pretty healthy foods, not too much animal fat, lots of fruits and vegetables and very little in the way of simple carbs. Yet I have not really lost weight for a while. Plateaus are normal, but I think there is something else going on here. While I have watched the quality of the food I am eating, I have not kept close control of the quantity, which has crept up. And large quantities of food, even good, healthy food, makes weight loss nearly impossible.

So today, I start counting calories again. I am at 1500, which seemed to work for me before when I was counting. So let’s see if counting calories helps.

Today I had two Kashi granola bars with organic peanut butter, a banana and fresh peach. In the evening I had a large bowl of home made vegetable soup. Well, I used canned tomatoes, but everything else was made from fresh veggies (onions, garlic, celery, zucchini, cauliflower, green beans, carrots and chick peas – the peas were canned). It was very tasty. I had some smoked oysters with that. During the day I snacked on some Finn Crisps and peanut butter, but I have counted those in my total.

If I can maintain the 1500 limit and get a little more walking in (the thermometer is forecast as more cooperative with outdoor ambulating this week), let’s see if I can get past the plateau.

Healthy eating is one thing, but I must lose more weight out of medical necessity.

I am feeling a bit sleepy now, which surprises me. I went to Starbucks last night to read and had some iced tea, but it was quite strong and the caffeine kept me up late. I finally took a melatonin at about 3 and got to sleep after 4 am. I didn’t get up until 11:30 this morning. The day seems awfully early to be this late.

July 15, 2010

Long Weekends Rule

I am taking tomorrow off work. Well, off my paying job. I have creative work to do, but that is a vacation as far as I’m concerned.

Yesterday I didn’t blog. I worked in our Long Island office, so I had four hours of commuting. Coming back the train was so crowded I had to stand for half the trip. That’s rare for a reverse commute (heads to the city after work whereas most head out of the city after work). It’s common for the subway. I don’t know where everybody was going. Based on the behavior of the riders I figured there must be some redneck concert at the Garden or something. There were many young people drinking 20 ounce cans of cheap beer and screaming. Joy.

Because of the threat of thunderstorms I didn’t walk over to the nearby building with the good cafeteria for lunch, so I ate at the one in the basement of our building. I had a chef salad, which in this case is iceberg lettuce (the lightest color, no real green) and sliced ham, turkey and Swiss cheese. I like the texture of iceberg lettuce, but it doesn’t have any flavor and very little nutritional value. For dinner I had some peanut butter and banana on Finn Crisps. I had a pear for a snack. I walked about a mile and a half – the thunderstorms never materialized.

Today I had some peanut butter on Finn Crisps (no banana) for lunch with some raw vegetables. I had an apple for a snack in the afternoon. Tonight I had some edamame hummus, chicken wings and chunky tomato soup. I will have some pineapple for a snack. Today I walked a mile.

I found a site today that analyzes a writing sample to tell you who you write like ( I put in the last half dozen or so blog posts and had them analyzed. The most frequent comparison was to David Foster Wallace. I had to look him up, but he apparently was a good writer (he committed suicide two years ago). A couple of times it compared me to Stephen King. Ok, for a mass fiction writer his style is not bad. Once it compared me to Mario Puzo. That I don’t get at all. Anyone reading my blog ever think about the Mafia? And another sample was compared to Dan Brown. That one hurt a little, but I would trade bank accounts with him. As the very erudite Stephen Fry once said of Mr. Brown’s DaVinci Code, “It is complete loose stool-water. It is arse gravy of the worst kind.” Now there’s a recipe.

July 13, 2010

If you want it done right you have to do it yourself.

The difficult thing about making really healthy food satisfying is that it requires preparation and a bit of work. You really can’t get the food I have eaten for the last two days at a restaurant, at least not affordably. I am a pretty good cook for a home cook and I try to be creative. The thing about a diet based mostly in vegetables, in order to get enough nutrition you have to eat a fair amount of them and the only way to do that consistently is with a lot of variety. So there is balance and variety, but it takes work.

I remember when Oprah dropped a lot of weight reading about her private chef who prepared all of her healthy meals. And yet she still yo-yo’s. It isn’t easy. The times when I slip are usually when I don’t have the energy or motivation or time to really put in the work. So I order in or eat out or buy some processed food easy to heat and serve.

Today I had home made tuna salad for lunch once again with some Finn Crisps. They are very thin, very crisp, and have a lot of fiber. For dinner I made egg salad (pictured above). It looks like a lot but it is mostly vegetables with just two boiled eggs. I finely chopped onions, garlic and celery and put some sweet pickle relish and sliced grape tomatoes in it. I scooped it up with green bell pepper. Along with it I had a soup made of pureed steamed onions with yellow and green squash and coconut milk, seasoned with a bit of Sriracha (a Thai condiment made of ground red chili peppers, vinegar, sugar and salt). It was even more delicious than the carrot soup I made last night.

The target blood sugar for a diabetic two hours after eating is 180. After two days of this good stuff and no insulin, my reading one hour after dinner was 175. And yet I am satisfied. Very satisfied with the flavor and amount of food.

But it is hard work.

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