Big Fat Queer

November 21, 2010

Light at the End of The Tunnel

Central Park Zoo Snow Monkeys, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

As I have mentioned before here I am in the throes of overwork (70-75 hr weeks). I only worked minimally this weekend and today I spent most of the day propped up in bed watching mindless television. Until I got to the American Music Awards and that was too mindless to bear.

Yesterday I did manage to get a couple of miles walking in. I went to the Central Park Zoo and tried out my new Canon 7D camera. The picture above was one of the first I shot. I also shot some video which is uploaded but still processing on YouTube. These very modest looking Snow Monkeys give a little bit of a sex show in the video. Woo-hoo! (Pressy sad, huh?)

I have eaten reasonably well lately, holding pretty steady. No cheeseburgers this week and the only thing with sugar I’ve had is fruit. Aside from being generally tired, I actually feel pretty good for the amount of work I have been doing. But I can’t go on like this forever. Next week is a short one and I get four days off in a row; I hope without much work, if any. The two weeks following the Thanksgiving break will be pretty hectic and long, but after than things should stabilize and be back to my normal 40-50 hour weeks. It’s a full week, but 25 hours less than recently. That’s a big chunk. Time to rest, to blog, to read and shoot pictures, still and moving.

The video finished processing, so here it is:

November 15, 2010

Yes, I’m Still Alive

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UIA Gargoyle, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

I haven’t blogged for a while, or made a video, or tweeted much. I’ve been very busy with work. There is so much going on at one time and the result is trying to manage many different simultaneous priorities without veering into total chaos. The work is not physically demanding per se, but my head is overflowing. It’s like walking with your arms full of objects and dropping objects and trying to pick them up before the next few drop. So far I have managed, but it is stressful and that winds up taking a physical toll.

It’s nothing new. Every year around this time for the last couple of decades it gets more than usually busy. Sometimes particularly so. This is one of those years. I manage by withdrawing from most things other than work. Sunday was the only day off this week and it was a beautiful day for November. Sixty Degrees and sunny. I thought of going out and shooting some pictures, but I decided I needed to stay put and try to relax before it all started again. I even found the web to be tiring since one’s attention span gets scattered in so many different directions. So I read. I talked to my mother for an hour or so. I Skyped with my friend Jeff for an hour or so.

The thing about reading that makes it so much more relaxing at a time like this is that it is mentally continuous. It flows. Social networking, reading blogs, watching short videos are all disjunctive and my life has enough disjunction for now. So I read. I am about finished with The Corrections by Jonathan Franzen. I had never read it and I have his new novel Freedom on my Kindle. I wanted to read this one first. It’s good. Sometimes a bit pedantic and sometimes tedious, but very erudite and often funny. And the story does pull me along.

I have been reasonably successful at eating well. Only an occasional lapse. One cheeseburger this week, but mostly poultry, fish, vegetables and fruit. No ice cream. Very little alcohol.

I just haven’t walked as much as I want. I have probably averaged only three quarters of a mile a day for the last week. Time and energy are hard to come by.

I took the picture above this spring. It is one of many gargoyles on the Ukranian Institute of America at 79th Street and Fifth Avenue. It represents how I have been feeling on some days recently.

November 3, 2010

I Need Discipline. I Need Discipline. I Need Discipline

Golden Riot, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

Ok, so I need discipline, and I’m not very good at it. The only way I can have discipline is to have a routine and stick to it. Lately I have given myself too many food options. So here is the routine I am trying to see if I can stick to it, at least for a while so I can get my weight back on a downward trend.

In the morning, coffee. No food. Despite the conventional wisdom, eating breakfast always makes me eat more all through the day.

For lunch, salad – vegetables only (which includes legumes, of course). Fortunately where I work there are several places that make very good salads with a wide variety of ingredients.

For dinner, meat, fowl or fish or cheese – nothing on the side.

For an evening snack, a piece of fruit.

This will give me a balanced, ample meal spread over the course of a day.

I’ll try it for a couple of days and let you know if I can stay with it. I think if I get keep it going through the weekend, I can keep it going for a while. Today I had a salad from a place called Chopt. I had the “Vegetarian Powerhouse” with broccoli, edamame, carrots, sunflower seeds, walnuts, craisins, apples, with spinach and romain lettuce. For dinner I had a steak (about 10 oz). I will have an apple later. I walked a mile and three quarters today.

Oh, I shot the picture above on Sunday in Central Park. Not many trees have turned yet, but this one was brilliant and everybody in the park was photographing it.

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