Big Fat Queer

January 2, 2012

What 100 lbs Looks Like

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What 100 lbs Looks Like

Halfway there.

February 18, 2011

Rufus is a Daddy

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On his website today Rufus Wainwright announced the birth of his daughter. It doesn’t mention in the article, but the biological mother (Lorca Cohen) is the daughter of Leonard Cohen.

One of the baby’s names is Katherine. I wonder if she is named for Kate McGarrigle, Rufus’s mother who died a little over a year ago. That led me to Google and I ran across this article of Rufus, Martha and Anna remembering Kate after her death. It moved me and I thought I would share it here.

August 27, 2010

I’m a Travelin’ Man

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I saw Elaine Stritch perform the song above on Broadway in Elaine Stritch At Liberty. I performed it myself way back in 1976 in a musical revue called Oh Coward, after the author of the song, The Master, Noel Coward.

I’m not traveling far, mind you. Today it was a mere 35 miles and I was never more than 10 miles from home. I have mentioned on this blog before that I am accumulating footage for a video project about Manhattan’s rivers and the life on and around them. I have shot footage from shores of the island over a couple of months. I still want to shoot from other boroughs looking toward Manhattan. I also want to shoot from the bridges that have walkways. While the weather is good I will accumulate footage and I’ll probably edit when it gets cold and I will need indoor projects. I sometimes get comments or messages from people wanting me to do more videos out and about in New York. I love those videos but they take time. They can take from 20 to 50 hours or more to shoot, edit, score, etc. This month my two most viewed vlogs (one with almost 4,000 views and one over 5,000) were done on an iPhone and were shot and uploaded in less than five minutes. I’ll do the New York videos, but they come much more slowly.

Today, I shot footage for my project on the Circle Line, the boat that sails a three hour cruise around the island. The weather was gorgeous and I shot over an hour of video, and about 250 still shots. It will take a couple of weeks after I shoot all the footage just to cull it down to a manageable amount. I occasionally travel incognito as a tourist. I don’t mind if people think that, although most New Yorkers would. I am well behaved and pretty much keep to myself and my cameras. The real tourists though… all right, I know it’s an easy target. And to be honest most were well behaved and well groomed. Some were even beautiful. But there were a few who would be right at home at People of Walmart. And there was a lot of needless yammering in many tongues. I was a bit annoyed at the people who would rush to get their picture taken with something in the background requiring them to shove me out of my niche I staked out early without so much as a “howdy do?”

But the piece de resistance, it if isn’t too outre to use French here: A man in a wife beater, as he was disembarking, sidled up to his girlfriend or wife or whatever, who was wearing a short dress, and dug his fingers into the crack of her butt. After which… he sniffed his fingers. Now that is damn classy. I wish Mr. Noel Coward had worked that into his lyrics.

Just before getting on the boat I had a minor hypoglycemic crash and I stuffed my face with an emergency Snickers. About halfway through the trip I was feeling low again, so I had a hot dog, the snack bar having no healthy choices. But I walked about two miles today and I moved around a lot on the boat. When I got home my blood sugar was normal, so I needed the carbs.

Tonight I will have a burger on high protein, high fiber, low carb bread.

Tomorrow, if I still feel good when I get up, I am going to take the train to Montauk, just for the day, and shoot surfers. I included some surfing footage in my Montauk video a couple of months ago. But when I was editing it I thought I would like to do an entire video just of surfing. I hope the waves are good and the surfers are out in force. I will have some seafood while I am there and it may be fried, but I also am not renting a car so there will be walking. I have mixed some nuts and dried fruits to take along to keep me nourished as I walk and shoot.

Here are some still pictures from the trip today:

June 24, 2010

Walking the Catwalk

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Sidewalk Catwalk – Norma Kamali 2

Originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings

I did not blog yesterday, but today’s food and movement are almost identical to yesterday. But first, much of today’s walking was on Broadway in the Fashion District where a new public art exhibit was unveiled today and will run through Labor Day. It’s called Sidewalk Catwalk and features haute couture pieces by top New York designers including Donna Karan, Michael Kors, Diane Von Furstenberg, Norma Kamali, Kenneth Cole, Badgley-Mischka, Nicole Miller and many more. The mannequins are in the pedestrian malls and they drew quite a crowd today. This picture is from my flickr feed. I posted several today and over the next few days I will post more.

For breakfast I had two Finn Crisp crackers with peanut butter. For lunch I had four of the same with slices of banana and some V8 juice. Tonight I had a turkey-ham-Jarlsberg sandwich on pumpernickel with a green salad, tomatoes, red pepper and avocado. As I said, yesterday was about the same. The only difference, last night I had fresh strawberries. Tonight I will have a mixture of fresh raspberries and blackberries.

I walked about a mile and a quarter both days (it was quite hot). I did about fifteen minutes with the resistance tubes.

June 13, 2010

You Can Smell Our Butts

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You Can Smell Our Butts

Originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings

I saw this cart at Madison Square Garden setting up for the BBQ Block Party.

May 7, 2010


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I’m feeling a little better today, perhaps because of the placebo effect of Friday. I felt fine after a night’s sleep, but I need a really long night’s sleep. As the day wears on into evening, my energy flags a bit and my throat is still a little scratchy. No hypoglycemic crashes today, though.

I had a granola bar in the morning, a salad with grilled chicken at midday. This afternoon I had an apple and a couple of ounces of raw cashews. When I got home I had some rotisserie chicken with steamed vegetables. I will have an orange after I write this.

I walked two miles today.

I worked a bit more on the Grey Gardens video. I shot randomly with two cameras (one 720 HD and one 1080 HD) so there is a lot to convert and conform and select and render before putting the whole thing together. Plus some additional writing. It takes time to torture something that makes sense out of random babblings and moving pictures. Here is a still from last Friday’s visit:

Grey Gardens

May 4, 2010

Starting to Feel Healthy Again

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After a couple of days back on track I am starting to feel healthy again. In retrospect, the “cheating” this weekend did not satisfy so much. Sometimes guilty pleasures are more attractive in the idea than in the actual doing. I am enjoying the taste and experience of healthy food more than the fried stuff and the starches this weekend. I had one beer at one meal and one glass of wine at another, and that was really more satisfying than the food. I didn’t have a kitchen, so I had to eat out. Next time I go out I may get a room with a kitchenette. The Montauk area has much fresh fish and fresh produce available directly from fishermen and farmers, and really great ingredients like that don’t require much fiddling with. The simpler the better.

Anyway, I’m feeling more energetic and less bloated than the end of the weekend. Today for breakfast I had a boiled egg and some almonds. For lunch I had a salad, all vegetables except for two little golf ball sized pieces of fresh mozzarella. This afternoon I had some smoked oysters and an apple, and when I got home I had some steamed shrimp and vegetables. I walked two miles today.

This evening I have been deeply absorbed in working on my vlogumentary of my side trip to Grey Gardens on Friday. Here is a very (very) short teaser:

Grey Gardens Teaser from Phil Davis on Vimeo.

April 22, 2010

I Saw My Doctor Today

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I had my regular quarterly appointment with my doctor today. He is my primary care physician as well as my cardiologist. I had an electrocardiogram, and echocardiogram, a breathing test, a leg circulation test, and scheduled blood work and a stress test. All of the in office tests were normal, and the blood and stress test results will come later on. He was very pleased with my weight loss. I told him I had cut my blood pressure meds in half because I was feeling light headed and my home monitor indicated low pressure. Since my bp was 120/80 today, he concurred that the new dosages were fine.

I walked three-quarters of a mile on the way to work this morning. For lunch I had about 4 ounces of corned beef, some steamed cabbage and a salad, about 500 calories. For dinner I ordered from one of the neighborhood Chinese joints, steamed vegetables with shrimp, chicken and beef (about 6 ounces of protein). I got their peanut/sesame dipping sauce. The proteins dipped in this sauce were delicious. I’m a little under 1,000 calories so far today, so I will have an apple and a smoothie for my evening snack.

My Doctor’s office is near New York Presbyterian Hospital on the East River, so I walked along the East River Walk on the way home. Total for today, 2.25 miles. I took over 100 pictures, a few came out to suit me, so here are pictures from my walk. If you like, you can click on a picture to see the larger size from my Flickr stream.

April 17, 2010

He Makes Me Feel Like Dancing

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I have moved. Well, about five feet. I rearranged my workroom/studio today and my desk and computer are against another wall. Moving the furniture was a breeze, but cleaning, rearranging and re-wiring everything was a bitch. I said in yesterday’s post that I was going to rest today. Oh well… best laid plans. I did work up a good sweat, and since the weather sucked, this was in lieu of walking. And I did get about an hour nap late afternoon.

For brunch I had a tomato and onion omelet with two slices of pumpernickel toast, about 500-600 calories. I had an afternoon snack of two ounces of coconut milk mixed with eight ounces of coconut water with mango juice.

Dinner was boneless spare ribs and Green Jade (which is a mixture of broccoli, green beans and snow peas). When I get Chinese food that is not steamed now, I put it in a large strainer and drain off the excess sauce.

Total for the day about 1400 calories. I will have an apple later and be at my target.

A year or two ago I was on a bus headed up the West Side of Manhattan when this elderly man got on (mid 70s). He was loud and brash and extremely animated. At first I thought he might be one of our many “characters”. He sat next to me and was talking to everyone who would listen and eventually got into a conversation with this woman on the other side of him from me. He said he had just gotten back from China and that he was performing at Symphony Space the next night and offered this woman tickets. He took her name and told her they would be waiting at the box office.

As soon as I stepped off the bus I realized it was Jacques d’Amboise. If you don’t know who he is, he was a principal dancer and choreographer with the New York City Ballet. I was fortunate to see him perform live in his last years there. He was in his mid 40s then and dancing character roles that weren’t as physically taxing. George Balanchine made several ballets on Jacques. He has won a MacArthur Fellowship, the National Medal of Arts and is a Kennedy Center Honoree. A Documentary about him called “He Makes Me Feel Like Dancin” which won an Academy Award in 1984.

In the mid 70s he founded the National Dance Institute and brought dance to NYC public schools. Last night I was looking for something to watch on TV besides the regular fare. On HBO on demand I browsed the documentaries and there was a short (25 minute) piece about him and the National Dance Institute in Shanghai. That is apparently where he had been just before I saw him on the bus. I watched it and it was wonderful. He is such a vibrant, positive, creative man. The dancing he got out of the kids (American and Chinese) was inspiring. The soloist was a professional dancer from China, Dou Dou Huang, who reminded me a bit of Baryshnikov in his prime. I was also fortunate enough to see him dance live several times at the peak of his career. If you get a chance to see this documentary, I recommend it.

It made me think about dancing. I used to move when I listened to music. I don’t dance in public, but I enjoy it privately as a way of expression. It is also good exercise. Jacques d’Amboise has revived that feeling.

Here is a teaser of d’Amboise and the NDI in Shanghai:

April 15, 2010

Smoothie Footnote

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I mixed a quarter cup of coconut milk, a half cup of coconut water and a cup of frozen sweet cherries and blended. The coconut milk gave it the creamier texture that was missing with just the coconut water and the flavor was great, so much better than my last experimentation with coconut milk. Maybe down the road a bit I can add a little rum. It tasted very tropical.

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