Big Fat Queer

February 16, 2011

Asian Salad For Lunch

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Romaine, spinach, edamame craisins, avocado, carrots, grilled chicken, mandarin orange sections, sundried tomatoes.

September 18, 2010

Pre-Stress Test

NY Harbor, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

Monday I finally have my stress test at Columbia Presbyterian Hospital, who claims to have a scanner that will accommodate a 430 pound body. Since mine is considerably less than that, I should fit – and still be in Manhattan, but just barely. I do wonder though how they come up with a number like 430, when the circumference of a 430 pound human can vary depending on height. In any event, I should fit.

When the test was first scheduled, or at last re-scheduled, I had a nightmare that I would be told after the test that they must crack open my chest immediately and do dastardly things to my innards. I really don’t have time for that foolishness. But it did feed some anxiety about the test. But by the week’s end I was feeling cocky that everything would be fine. At least good enough not to require any immediate surgery. I am a bit scalpel-phobic.

So today I put my heart to a little bit of stress to reassure myself. I walked four miles, most of it at a fairly brisk pace, a good mile or so uphill, and I had no chest pains, no shortness of breath and I do not feel fatigued, but rather invigorated. My poor ankle joints are a bit strained, but if you had to carry that weight you would too.

I did errands this morning and walked about a mile in the neighborhood. During my errands I ate at a diner, having eggs and sausage. I also had potatoes, which I usually eschew, because I knew I was going to be doing a lot of walking. I injected insulin, but I thought I compensated for the exercise. Then I took a subway to Brooklyn Heights to go to the promenade to shoot footage for my river project. I’m including the Harbor as well.

After Brooklyn Heights I intended to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge back to Manhattan. You get a much better view walking towards Manhattan rather than from Manhattan to Brooklyn. I got about a quarter mile up the ramp to the bridge and started feeling a little wobbly. I tested my blood sugar and it was 110. I ate my emergency Snickers and walked a bit more, but still didn’t feel too strong. I tested my blood sugar again and it was 98, still going down despite the candy bar. I didn’t think it wise to continue as on the bridge there is no place to get anything sweet to eat or drink and I was also feeling a little dehydrated. So I re-traced my steps back to the entrance to the ramp where there is a diner and I sat for a while and had a grilled cheese sandwich with a Pepsi (a rather flat Pepsi, but it had sugar). After resting and getting some carbs I felt fine to continue on. So I did and completed the trip across with no problems. I got some really good footage and a few still shots as well, including the one in this post taken from the bridge looking toward the harbor with the Verazzano Narrows Bridge in the background.

After I post this I am going to have some Greek yogurt with peach slices and fresh raspberries.

After my transgression earlier in the week, I have been pretty responsible with eating and moving. Thursday I worked in another office from my usual office and ate some Vietnamese spring rolls and salad at a restaurant nearby. When I got home I made a gumbo from the breasts of the rotistterie chicken I had eaten part of (the dark meat) the night before. It was tasty, but later in the night I had stomach cramps and cold sweat. Everything cleared up by Friday, so I don’t know what it was, but I threw the gumbo away just in case. I didn’t want to eat anything I had eaten the day before.

Friday I had lunch with a colleague at a tavern near Madison Square Park. We split an appetizer plate with wings, chicken fingers and sliders (I had one slider). The small bun on the slider and the breading on the chicken finger (not all that much) were the only carbs. My entree was a grilled shrimp salad with avocado and hearts of palm. For dinner last night I had shrimp and walnuts with no rice from a Chinese restaurant.

I have had a lot of salty animal fat today, so I may eat only vegetables tomorrow. I can’t have any caffeine until later Monday and I don’t tolerate caffeine well late in the day, so probably Tuesday. I may have to get up early Tuesday just for a caffeine fix.

I will let you know how the stress test turns out.

August 26, 2010

OMG Potato Chips!


Some of the partners of my company had a luncheon today for whatever reason, but often whey they do they order a sandwich platter with various crap on the side (cookies, potato salad, fruit). After the luncheon they put the leftovers on a table in the staff lunch area so that the goodness trickles down. Ah noblesse oblige! Ok, I’m using a bit of hyperbole, but I usually decline partner leftovers. Today I noticed they had potato chips. I haven’t had a potato chip in a long time, so I ate one, then two… then I ran away.

It is a cliche, but it is hard to eat just one. Potato chips are the perfect junk food gateway drug. First of all, anything made with potatoes from gnocchi to vodka is so tasty. Add the crispness, the fat, the salt and voila! You have me hooked. And eating just one more isn’t so bad. Then just one more, then after you have eaten about a couple hundred of them, you think “What have I done?” And the guilt makes you eat some cheese just to atone.

For lunch today I had a peanut butter and banana sandwich on pump. I also had the other half of an avocado from yesterday and part of a white peach, which was pithy and mealy and not very tasty. Oh yes, and two potato chips.

Tonight I am making Eggs in Purgatory. More about that later.

August 25, 2010

Fat is Good

Well, some fat. The conventional wisdom that so much of the health-care and food industry perpetuates is that low fat diets are good for everybody. They probably are, for some people, for example people who have normal blood sugar levels and high blood fat levels. They probably should eat less fat and more complex carbs.

But I am the opposite. My blood sugar is elevated and my blood fats are extremely low. Thus I think it makes sense for me to eat more fat and less carbs. But mostly the good fats from nuts, olive oil, avocado and for me it seems coconut fat is good. I went back to having some coconut oil and/or milk every day this week and I can tell a difference in my appetite. From what I read, medium-chain triglycerides (like coconut oil) are metabolized into energy almost as directly as carbs, and not immediately stored. But they don’t raise blood sugar, at least not for me.

I will monitor the levels because as a diabetic, I don’t want to risk any elevation of blood fats above normal, but as long as I can tolerate the good fats, I am less hungry. I learned that earlier in this project, but I drifted away from it.

Today for lunch I had a ham sandwich on pumpernickel, half an avocado and a tomato. For an afternoon snack I had a Golden Delicious apple. For dinner I had another of the same sandwich and a vegetable puree of yellow squash, onions, carrots and lima beans with some coconut milk and sriracha.

Before bed I will have a small frozen berry and coconut milk and coconut water smoothie.

I walked a mile and a half today.

I have a three day weekend coming up. My energy levels have improved this week. I don’t know how much of that is diet and how much is the demise of infection agents. I have some ideas of things I want to video since the weather is supposed to be really nice. It involves a little travel around bodies of water.

May 16, 2010

Long Walk by the River

I still am coughing, but it is a much shallower cough. In terms of energy I am much better. I walked two and a half miles today, mostly in the park along the East River. I live about midway between Central Park and the East River and I alternate between the two. It was a gorgeous day. I didn’t shoot any still pictures, but I shot some video. I am getting clips for a video I plan to make eventually about the life of Manhattan rivers.

I had a tomato and onion omelet for breakfast. Instead of potatoes I requested lettuce and tomato. I had rye toast, which was about the only simple carbs I had today. For dinner I had a quarter roast chicken, Brussels sprouts with olive oil and organic tomato soup with about a table spoon of coconut oil added to it. I also had a couple of avocado slices.

I tried the eating more often during the day, but I don’t think it works for me. I’m not denying that it probably increases the metabolism, but when I do it I find that I am spending a large portion of my day planning the meals and thinking about food. I think I eat more overall that way. It’s like exercise. It has to fit into my life. The five small meals a day feels like a gimmick – I’m not saying it is, but my life reacts to it that way. I doubt that our ancient ancestors had five small meals a day. They ate when they could, which sometimes wasn’t often.

I did fill out my calorie count log and I am at around 1600 calories today. But I did walk more than usual. I will eat an orange now.

Here is a short unedited clip from my walk today.

April 27, 2010

Mini-Meals for Mini-Me

Per Joe Riggs’ advice I am trying to eat more frequently, but smaller meals. This is supposed to increase my metabolism, reduce insulin secretion and improve my insulin sensitivity. One thing I do notice is that I don’t feel stuffed and therefore not logey. I feel a little hungry, but not overly so. It takes some adjustment.

Today I have eaten three times so far.

For breakfast I had a boiled egg, a banana and a few almonds.

For lunch I had a salad of mixed greens, chick peas, shredded cabbage and a wedge (about 1/4) of avocado.

This afternoon I had about two ounces of peanuts and an apple (a fresh organic Winesap from the Greenmarket)

Looking at this I see a side benefit – a great deal of variety in what I am eating.

I walked a mile so far today. The weather is getting quite sunny and it should be a beautiful weekend, which is great as I am going to spend the weekend in beautiful Montauk, one of my favorite places on earth. Here is a picture of the Montauk Lighthouse I took on a visit there last September. If you click on the pic you can see a larger view.

April 20, 2010

Big Chunk o’ Beef

I walked two and a half miles today, a mile on the way to work, a half mile at lunch and a mile on the way home. It felt good.

For lunch I had about 4 ounces of turkey and a salad. No snack. For dinner I had a steak (thanks, Joe). I ordered in and the steak was 16 ounces. I had intended to eat the whole thing, even though it would put me over my target of 1500 calories, but after half of it I didn’t want anymore. Not that I didn’t enjoy the first half, but it was enough for tonight. I will have the rest of it tomorrow night. I also had a salad with a few slices of avocado on top of the regular tossed salad from the restaurant. After a coconut milk and raspberry smoothie tonight I will be between 1500-1600 calories for the day.

I met with Joe Riggs after work (many of you know him from YouTube and Twitter). He is a holistic health coach and he offered to consult on my efforts to change my life. At first when I heard the words holistic health coach I had some misgivings that he might advise me to eat nothing but alfalfa sprouts and seitan for the rest of my life, but far from it. In fact he suggested the steak, which was delicious. All in all we are pretty much on the same page, but he has some information and ideas that I think can help me.

About the monitoring of weight and calories, that is for the time being while I retrain my body and my habits. I don’t have a particular weight in mind. I think (and Joe agrees) that if I live a healthy life, my body will get to the weight it should. But for now weight and calories give me some handle on what I am doing and some measure of discipline to change deeply ingrained habits. Once a healthy life is second nature to me, I think I can discard these tools, which are just two among many.

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