Big Fat Queer

September 15, 2010

I’ve Been Good. I’ve Been Bad. I’ve Been Good Again.

Met Life, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

Two of the last three days I have eaten well and moved a lot. Sandwiched in between – not so good. Speaking of sandwich…

Yesterday I worked in our Long Island office. On the train out I had a Kashi GoLean cruncy bar. Not terrible, but I usually don’t eat breakfast and when I do, I usually eat more during the day. Sometimes for lunch I walk to the next building, about half a mile away, and they have a nice cafeteria there with tasty healthy choices. The deli in the basement of our building has some healthy choices, but none are tasty. Instead of walking over, which I could have done since it was a gorgeous day, I ate in the basement. I had a cheeseburger with fries. Tasty, but loaded with carbs, so I was hungry all day. I had some pretzels on the train back, and when I got back in the city, I went to La Caridad, an old favorite Cuban/Chinese dive with good food. I had fried pork chops (the menu says two, but for some reason they gave me three), yellow rice and red beans. Damn good. And when I got home I had ice cream. When I’m bad, I’m bad. The one bright spot is that I did walk a mile and a half.

Monday I did well. I had a salad with chicken and vegetables for lunch, no snacks and some turkey meatballs in broth when I got home. That was it all day, and I walked two miles.

Today I had ginger chicken for lunch, no rice, and for dinner I had half a rotisserie chicken and some steamed veggies quickly sauteed in coconut oil. That’s it for today. I walked over two miles, most of it after work. I went to the Hudson River park to shoot some video of the river for my long term project.

The picture here is the old Metropolitan Life building on Madison Square Park and 23rd Street. I took it on the trip home from the waterfront.

August 30, 2010

Maybe I Need to Drink More

In my 20s and 30s I used to be a heavy drinker. I mean heavy. On some days I might drink the equivalent of two six packs of beer or the better part of a fifth of liquor. Most days I drank some. For a couple of years after that I stopped drinking altogether. In the last 20 years I would describe myself as a light drinker. I don’t drink every day and sometimes a couple of weeks go by without a drop of alcohol. On rare occasions (like a couple of Fridays ago when I went out with friends – I blogged about it here) I drink a lot – for me. But nothing like the old days.

Time magazine just posted a study that says that heavy drinkers outlive non-drinkers. Moderate drinkers live longer than heavier drinkers though. I’m not even a moderate drinker. I guess I should step it up.

Yesterday I recovered from my Saturday at Montauk by watching tv and not much else. I had an onion omelet at midday with high protein, high fiber, low carb toast. For dinner I had two chicken thighs with a coconut milk curry sauce, steamed broccoli, and carrot/mango soup. Note to self: next time try a 2:1 ratio of carrots to mango. I did an even amount this time and probably too much mango.

Today I had a salad for lunch and some mixed nuts in the afternoon. Tonight I will have some low carb pasta with pesto sauce. I had basil left over from when I made Eggs in Purgatory, so last night I made a pesto. I usually like pine nuts with it, but I couldn’t find a small amount and the large amount was very costly. So I used almonds and it tasted fine. I will toss it with angel hair pasta tonight and some protein on the side. I haven’t decided which. Also I’ll have a salad.

Before the day is done I expect I will have walked a mile and a half.

August 25, 2010

Fat is Good

Well, some fat. The conventional wisdom that so much of the health-care and food industry perpetuates is that low fat diets are good for everybody. They probably are, for some people, for example people who have normal blood sugar levels and high blood fat levels. They probably should eat less fat and more complex carbs.

But I am the opposite. My blood sugar is elevated and my blood fats are extremely low. Thus I think it makes sense for me to eat more fat and less carbs. But mostly the good fats from nuts, olive oil, avocado and for me it seems coconut fat is good. I went back to having some coconut oil and/or milk every day this week and I can tell a difference in my appetite. From what I read, medium-chain triglycerides (like coconut oil) are metabolized into energy almost as directly as carbs, and not immediately stored. But they don’t raise blood sugar, at least not for me.

I will monitor the levels because as a diabetic, I don’t want to risk any elevation of blood fats above normal, but as long as I can tolerate the good fats, I am less hungry. I learned that earlier in this project, but I drifted away from it.

Today for lunch I had a ham sandwich on pumpernickel, half an avocado and a tomato. For an afternoon snack I had a Golden Delicious apple. For dinner I had another of the same sandwich and a vegetable puree of yellow squash, onions, carrots and lima beans with some coconut milk and sriracha.

Before bed I will have a small frozen berry and coconut milk and coconut water smoothie.

I walked a mile and a half today.

I have a three day weekend coming up. My energy levels have improved this week. I don’t know how much of that is diet and how much is the demise of infection agents. I have some ideas of things I want to video since the weather is supposed to be really nice. It involves a little travel around bodies of water.

August 23, 2010

Life is Just a Bowl of Cherries

Earlier this evening I pitted a large bowl of fresh cherries by hand with only a paring knife and my fingers, which are now quite red. I put them in the freezer (the cherries, not my fingers) with some fresh pineapple chunks. I will be using some of this cold fruit to make a smoothie with coconut milk in few minutes.

I am feeling even better today than yesterday after a busy day at work. For lunch I had some roast chicken thigh and some raw vegetables. I had no breakfast or snacks during the day. For dinner I had organic peanut butter on Finn Crisps and the last bowl of home made vegetable soup from this weekend. Later I will haz my smoothie.

Though it was rainy and dank all day, I walked about a mile and a quarter.

I feel like I am more on track like the early days of this blog. I don’t know if feeling better is the cause or the effect.

August 10, 2010

Chicken Oysters are Delicious

As many of you probably know, the oysters on a chicken are the two roundish pieces located on the chicken back next to the thigh. I tried to find a picture to illustrate them, but no luck. Many, myself included, consider the oysters to be the tastiest part of the chicken. They have the flavor and moisture of dark meat with the tigher musculature of white meat. And they are so tasty. I would like to have a whole bowl of just chicken oysters. I have never seen them sold separately. The French call them “m├ędaillons du poulet”.

Last night I had half a rotisserie chicken. Tonight I cut up the other half and made a stew with sauteed onions, diced tomatoes, mixed vegetables, coconut milk and Sriracha. It was creamy and spicy. I had a salad with it.

Yesterday and today, granola for breakfast. Peanut butter on Finn Crisps with bananas for lunch.

It has been mucho caliente the last couple of days so I’ve only walked about a mile a day. I have not been able to use my resistance bands for a few weeks. I have had an injury in my shoulder, but it is much improved, though not 100%. I have iced it and taken Advil. The passing of time has also helped.

July 29, 2010

Less Than a Year to Go. Why Bother?

End of the World, originally uploaded by FantasticBabblings.

Since the world is ending May 21, 2011 should I even bother to get healthy? I think I can eat chicken McNuggets for a year and maybe survive until the apocalypse.

But anyhoo… Tonight I had a very nice meal. I stir-fried an assortment of vegetables (onions, tomatoes, yellow and green squash, peppers, corn, lima beans, carrots) in a mixture of olive oil and coconut oil and pureed them with some coconut milk and sriracha and made a lovely creamy soup. Then I sauteed some finely minced onions, threw in eight ounces of shrimp and at the end tossed in some rosemary and lemon zest. It was all very tasty.

Lunch was nothing unusual, about four ounces of chicken and a salad.

For breakfast I had some granola with skim milk and a banana. No snacks during the day today. Tonight I have some fresh cherries.

I walked a mile and a half today.

I am searching for something to read relating to food. Has anyone read “The Omnivore’s Dilemma” by Michael Pollan? I am considering reading it and I just wondered if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions.

July 13, 2010

If you want it done right you have to do it yourself.

The difficult thing about making really healthy food satisfying is that it requires preparation and a bit of work. You really can’t get the food I have eaten for the last two days at a restaurant, at least not affordably. I am a pretty good cook for a home cook and I try to be creative. The thing about a diet based mostly in vegetables, in order to get enough nutrition you have to eat a fair amount of them and the only way to do that consistently is with a lot of variety. So there is balance and variety, but it takes work.

I remember when Oprah dropped a lot of weight reading about her private chef who prepared all of her healthy meals. And yet she still yo-yo’s. It isn’t easy. The times when I slip are usually when I don’t have the energy or motivation or time to really put in the work. So I order in or eat out or buy some processed food easy to heat and serve.

Today I had home made tuna salad for lunch once again with some Finn Crisps. They are very thin, very crisp, and have a lot of fiber. For dinner I made egg salad (pictured above). It looks like a lot but it is mostly vegetables with just two boiled eggs. I finely chopped onions, garlic and celery and put some sweet pickle relish and sliced grape tomatoes in it. I scooped it up with green bell pepper. Along with it I had a soup made of pureed steamed onions with yellow and green squash and coconut milk, seasoned with a bit of Sriracha (a Thai condiment made of ground red chili peppers, vinegar, sugar and salt). It was even more delicious than the carrot soup I made last night.

The target blood sugar for a diabetic two hours after eating is 180. After two days of this good stuff and no insulin, my reading one hour after dinner was 175. And yet I am satisfied. Very satisfied with the flavor and amount of food.

But it is hard work.

July 12, 2010

Back After a Few Days Break

I took a long weekend away from blogging, during which time I ate a cheeseburger and some ice cream among healthier things. Today I am behaving again.

I walked a mile and a quarter. For lunch I had some home made tuna salad with Finn Crisp crackers. I had an apple for a snack. Tonight I had grilled zucchini and onions with a soup made from a puree of carrots and sauteed onions mixed with some coconut milk (pictured above). It was delicious. I also had about a tablespoon of peanut butter on some Finn Crisps.

Over the weekend I did a vlog about various attacks targeting gay people around the world in the last couple of weeks:

June 27, 2010

I Thai’d One On

Tonight I made peanut soup inspired by a recipe posted in the comments on this blog, but I did a Thai variation on it. I can’t give exact measurements because I cook by intuition, but here’s the overall recipe. Sautee onions and celery, finely chopped. When the onions are translucent at some chicken stock (you can use other stocks). Then I add some salt and pepper (after the stock because the stock has some seasoning). As the stock gets hot add peanut butter until the mixture is slightly creamy. The recipe I started from then adds cream of chicken soup and milk, but I added coconut milk. Adjust the seasonings. I cooked it early afternoon and let it sit for a few hours to marry the flavors then reheated it. I served it with Sriracha (thai pepper sauce). I ordered chicken satay and Thai summer roll (raw veggies rolled up in rice paper). It was delicious.

This morning I had some pumpernickel bread with cream cheese, onion and tomato.

It was well over 90 degrees today and I did not go outside, but I did about 20 minutes of exercise with resistance tubes.

If you like peanut butter as much as I do, I recomment the peanut butter soup.

May 6, 2010

Under the Weather

I don’t know if I have a virus or just allergies. My throat is a little sore and I am feeling general malaise, though not serious. I don’t think I have a fever. I had a slight hypoglycemic crash this afternoon. Not enough to break out in a cold sweat, but I did get very weak and had to eat my emergency Snickers. I haven’t had to do that in over three weeks. I didn’t inject any insulin this morning, but my reading before lunch seemed to warrant 20 units, which would historically for me be a very small dose. I did walk three quarters of a mile during lunch. On the way home I walked another mile and a quarter. It was when I sat on a bench in this little mini park on 43rd Street that I started to sink. This is good news, I think. If I am correct, it means my insulin sensitivity is increasing, so I don’t need to inject as much. But the crash might have been enough to lower my immune system sufficiently for whatever I am feeling to get a foothold. I’ll survive. Right after a crash I get ravenously hungry, but I resisted pigging out and waited until I got home for a regular meal.

I had a granola bar this morning. I had a salad at mid-day with a couple of chicken legs. Between them they probably had four ounces of chicken on them. I had an apple in the afternoon, and when I got home I made salmon and scrambled eggs and had that in a sandwich on pumpernickel bread with sliced tomatoes. I had a bunch of raw vegetables with that. I will have a smoothie now, coconut milk/water and blueberries.

I worked a little more on my Grey Gardens video tonight. I probably need to rest. This weekend I am not traveling anywhere that requires wheels. I’ll stay close to home and take it easy.

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