Big Fat Queer

July 10, 2011

Back on Track

Poached eggs, rye toast and Sriracha.

Today I did well. For breakfast I had two perfectly poached eggs (using the steamer) with rye toast. Breakfast was late so I didn’t eat lunch. I had a half cup of apple sauce (no sugar added) for a snack. For dinner I had 6 ounces of grilled chicken with some pureed peas, pureed yellow squash, pureed green beans and pureed carrots (1/4 cup each). I will have a 6 oz Chobani Lemon Greek yogurt for a late snack. That brings me to 1100 calories for the day. I did 20 minutes on the Upper Body Exerciser. It said it burned 194 calories, though I think that is an overstatement. Maybe 100.

This is the Upper Body Exerciser, which is basically a tabletop stationary bicycle that I pedal with my hands. Actually “pedal” is not the right word since it is from the Latin for foot. What would the manual equivalent of pedal be?

Upper Body Exerciser

June 7, 2011

Shrunk and Pureed

September 5, 2010

A Breakthrough in Fried Vegetable Technology

This afternoon I felt a little peckish and wanted a snack. Yesterday I went to the neighborhood farmer’s market, which is just a few tables at a weekly flea market a few blocks away. I bought tomatoes and squash. There are many ways to prepare squash, but growing up one of my favorites was fried. Lately I try to avoid breading things with wheat flour so I tried to think of some alternative. A few days ago I made some falafel from a mix and had some of the mix left. So I dusted the slices of squash with falafel mix and fried them quickly in very hot peanut oil. They were very tasty. Crisp on the outside with a strong cumin flavor. I can’t believe the spell check on this blog software does not recognize the word falafel.

The first day of my vacation I had an onion and tomato omelet (one of my favorites) and started doing housework at about 1:30 in the afternoon. I worked until after 10 pm, with a few breaks. It was good exercise. Things got cleaned that hadn’t been cleaned in a long time and I threw away a lot of crap. I also found a few things I could sell. I sold some stackable storage bins and a sewing machine today. I still have an old laptop computer and a brand new never used heavy duty (supports 800 lbs) folding chair. Come on craiglist, help me out. I had some chicken wings (delivered) and cole slaw (home made) for dinner. I rewarded my hard work with a cachaca collada for a night cap, which is basically a pina collada with cachaca instead of rum.

Yesterday I watched movies, took pictures of my items for sale, and had a nice long walk – two miles. It was a gorgeous day. I passed by Memorial Sloan Kettering Hospital on my walk. Outside stood a guy with an IV running to his arm from the bag on a pole, and he was smoking a cigarette. I’m so glad I quit in 1986 and never started back. It’s hard to shake. Even cancer won’t scare some people enough to quit. During the day I had the rest of the chicken wings, a tomato sandwich and a burger. Both sandwiches on light wheat bread (40 cals a slice). Friends came over last night to hang out and I had two beers.

Today I had some granola around noon with a golden delicious apple cut up in it and non-fat organic milk. Later I think I will make Eggs in Purgatory again. I still have sauce from the last time. It is thawing now. I am cataloging scenes from my surfing shoot last week and I hope to get it edited soon. I have a couple of other projects I am working on today.

Tomorrow I will probably take it easy, maybe go for a walk and take a camera along. Maybe I’ll catch the guy at Sloan Kettering on break again.

August 25, 2010

Fat is Good

Well, some fat. The conventional wisdom that so much of the health-care and food industry perpetuates is that low fat diets are good for everybody. They probably are, for some people, for example people who have normal blood sugar levels and high blood fat levels. They probably should eat less fat and more complex carbs.

But I am the opposite. My blood sugar is elevated and my blood fats are extremely low. Thus I think it makes sense for me to eat more fat and less carbs. But mostly the good fats from nuts, olive oil, avocado and for me it seems coconut fat is good. I went back to having some coconut oil and/or milk every day this week and I can tell a difference in my appetite. From what I read, medium-chain triglycerides (like coconut oil) are metabolized into energy almost as directly as carbs, and not immediately stored. But they don’t raise blood sugar, at least not for me.

I will monitor the levels because as a diabetic, I don’t want to risk any elevation of blood fats above normal, but as long as I can tolerate the good fats, I am less hungry. I learned that earlier in this project, but I drifted away from it.

Today for lunch I had a ham sandwich on pumpernickel, half an avocado and a tomato. For an afternoon snack I had a Golden Delicious apple. For dinner I had another of the same sandwich and a vegetable puree of yellow squash, onions, carrots and lima beans with some coconut milk and sriracha.

Before bed I will have a small frozen berry and coconut milk and coconut water smoothie.

I walked a mile and a half today.

I have a three day weekend coming up. My energy levels have improved this week. I don’t know how much of that is diet and how much is the demise of infection agents. I have some ideas of things I want to video since the weather is supposed to be really nice. It involves a little travel around bodies of water.

July 30, 2010

I Miss That Lovely Boy With The Golden Beets

I know a few of you looked at the “dailies” that I have submitted to “Life in a Day”. In one clip at the Union Square Green Market I approach a table of root vegetables and narrated what I saw, fresh onions with the tops still attached, carrots, leeks, celery… and then I didn’t recognize what I saw next. It looked like beets. It was right next to the beets, but it was sort of orange.

I heard a voice from across the table telling me it was “golden beets”. I had never heard of golden beets before. I was fascinated; moreso when I looked up from the camera to see the body from which emanated the voice. He was a very nice looking boy, well, young man – maybe 18 or 19, but boy-ish, at least to me. We spoke a little. I asked him if he worked on the farm. He said sometimes, but he preferred working at the market. He was very appealing. Cute, yes, but had a farmboy way about him. (I swear I’m not trying to write soft core gay porn here. I’m just trying to describe what was just a nice situation. I’m not even thinking about that… consciously.) He seemed guileless and sweet, but not a cliche. Definitely not a hipster city boy. I doubt that he clubs in Williamsburg. He was far more interesting than that. Does the gentleman project too much? I asked to put him on camera. He declined, but he thanked me for asking in a way that implied that people do photograph him or film him without asking.

I didn’t buy any beets that day. But I have been thinking about them for a couple of days. Is it the beets or is it the boy? Does it matter? I wanted to roast them and make golden borscht with them. (This is starting to sound more like soft core porn).

Anyway, the boy and his little agricultural coterie were not at the market today. On Fridays only about half the vendors show up. I haven’t decided if I will go back tomorrow. Probably not. But if I do I may just find golden beets at another table. Just to prove it isn’t about the boy. But then again… if I am already there, it would be rude not to say hello 🙂

I bought more non-gmo corn on the cob. The thing about corn whose genes are unmolested and that hasn’t been drenched in pesticides is that the ear is gap-toothed (mix any metaphors lately Mr. Holyfield?). It’s kind of nubby and ugly, but it’s delicious (No Porno!)

I also got some tomatoes (both red and heirloom) and yellow and green squash. I grilled the squash with some onions and boiled some corn and grilled a hamburger patty. Very tasty.

Lunch was chicken and salad. For Breakfast I had a “Full Bar”, which is supposed to make you feel full. I don’t know if it did, but I wasn’t crazy about it. Spongy, no crunch.

I walked two miles.

I will eat a peach later. I am having one cocktail for the evening. Vodka on the rocks with a twist of lemon.

Anyone else with book suggestions, keep them coming. I haven’t decided yet, but here are some of the suggestions:

“The Omnivore’s Dilemma” by Michael Pollan
“Eating for Life” by Bill Phillips
“The End of Overeating: Taking Control of the Insatiable North American Appetite” by David Kessler

July 13, 2010

If you want it done right you have to do it yourself.

The difficult thing about making really healthy food satisfying is that it requires preparation and a bit of work. You really can’t get the food I have eaten for the last two days at a restaurant, at least not affordably. I am a pretty good cook for a home cook and I try to be creative. The thing about a diet based mostly in vegetables, in order to get enough nutrition you have to eat a fair amount of them and the only way to do that consistently is with a lot of variety. So there is balance and variety, but it takes work.

I remember when Oprah dropped a lot of weight reading about her private chef who prepared all of her healthy meals. And yet she still yo-yo’s. It isn’t easy. The times when I slip are usually when I don’t have the energy or motivation or time to really put in the work. So I order in or eat out or buy some processed food easy to heat and serve.

Today I had home made tuna salad for lunch once again with some Finn Crisps. They are very thin, very crisp, and have a lot of fiber. For dinner I made egg salad (pictured above). It looks like a lot but it is mostly vegetables with just two boiled eggs. I finely chopped onions, garlic and celery and put some sweet pickle relish and sliced grape tomatoes in it. I scooped it up with green bell pepper. Along with it I had a soup made of pureed steamed onions with yellow and green squash and coconut milk, seasoned with a bit of Sriracha (a Thai condiment made of ground red chili peppers, vinegar, sugar and salt). It was even more delicious than the carrot soup I made last night.

The target blood sugar for a diabetic two hours after eating is 180. After two days of this good stuff and no insulin, my reading one hour after dinner was 175. And yet I am satisfied. Very satisfied with the flavor and amount of food.

But it is hard work.

May 17, 2010

Back on Track

I worked a full day, and while I am a bit tired, I feel okay. I walked a mile and a half today.

For lunch I had a fillet of broiled tilapia and a salad. Dinner was chicken breast chopped up in chicken broth with onions and a tablespoon of coconut oil. I made a soup of yellow squash and onions and had about half dozen Brussels sprouts. About 1400 calories today. I will have some coconut water and a few pineapple chunks for my evening snack.

April 26, 2010

Grouper is Good; Mondays Suck

I had two fillets of grouper this evening, sauteed in a little butter, lemon juice and garlic. It was very fresh and not fishy at all. On the side: broccoli rabe and parsnip/squash puree.

I had breakfast today: a boiled egg and some almonds. Lunch was about six ounces of turkey and a salad.

I will have a smoothie of organic milk and strawberries. I have walked a mile today in nasty cold rain.

Mondays beat the shit out of me. I never get enough sleep. Left to it’s own devices, my body likes to go to bed at 2 or 3 am. In my reckless youth it was 4 or 5. My body likes to get up at 10 am. So on the weekends I move toward my natural cycle, but Monday I have to get up earlier (7 o’clock this morning). After going to bed at 2, 7 seems awfully early. Then the readjustment to work, coming home to sort laundry. What joy. Sorry for complaining. Life is good; Mondays are not.

But – the bright side: I am only working three days this week. I am taking Thursday and Friday off. I am going to Montauk for a couple of days this weekend to take pictures, maybe make a video, stare out at the ocean and drive around the East End of Long Island. I will give you a full report.

April 16, 2010

The Undertow of Tired

The rain is falling, the air is cold and soggy. On my first day off of three, I did a lot of things around the house that have been put off for a few months, and while the stress of the workload is off, the physical tiredness is starting to catch up. Sometimes when you have to keep going you push yourself and when you finally get a chance to relax, you realize how tired you are. I am going to try to spend the next couple of days actually resting. There is nothing urgent that needs doing except that.

The mac and cheese was ok, but I honestly enjoyed the parsnip and squash puree more. I feel stuffed, which is an unusual feeling. I am about 1400 calories for the day. I may have a snack before bed and I may just go to bed early.

I ran a few errands this afternoon (a half mile of walking) and as I was lugging bags up the stairs I was curious as to how much my packages weighed, since the trip up the stairs was a bit of a struggle. I weighed with the bags, then without. The difference was only 17 lbs, which is less than what I have lost in the last month. Try walking several blocks and up a flight of stairs with 17 lbs and you understand why I feel so much better now.

April 3, 2010

Spring Fever

Some people got to relax today. After work I went to Hudson River Park and got a little sunshine and snapped some pictures. I walked about a mile and a half today. I went to bed early last night, but got up about an hour and a half earlier than the alarm this morning. Knowing I had to go to the office, I couldn’t get back to sleep. In about a week and a half the tax season madness will be over for this year. If I were not eating better and walking as much as i am, I know I would be more tired and stressed than I am. But it was nice to get a little daylight outside today, although it didn’t seem to be as warm as forecast.

For dinner I made oyster stew. I used whole milk and skim milk mixed (is that equal to 2% or what?) and half a cup of really fresh, plump oysters, a little bit of onion and a pat of butter to tenderize the onions. A little high on animal fat, but it was tasty. I made a puree of parsnip and yellow squash, which was one of the best things I have ever tasted. So simple (steam the two together, blend thoroughly with about a teaspoon of olive oil, salt and pepper. Perfect.) I also had some steamed broccoli and cauliflower. Altogether about 550 calories. That puts me at about 1300 for the day so far.

Later I will have a smoothie of skim milk and frozen strawberries and be right on target for food intake today. Probably a little heavy on the dairy, but I don’t eat dairy but about a couple of days a week.

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